For the Dutchman

When I open up, they don’t

like what they see,

so paint spills from

the sutures. Picasso knew nothing of

blue. The sunflowers grow

away from me, and the chains are

restless. I was pastoral, pariah, never

the poster boy for proper behavior.

Belligerent and broken, bashful

without the token of your affections to keep me

grounded. I’m holy

and hemorrhaging, tired

of holding onto

neurons that won’t hold me.

Sorry, still

brilliant, I’m burning with a mouth alight,

looking for a well.